“Do I let him go?For me, I knew it was time to let him know, while letting him go. Time had come for us to ultimately settle things . My heart had left my body in many instances at the thought of him.
Questions rummaged in my mind any time his name was mentioned. Of course they had no answers, rhetoric they were. What they did was leaving bruises that I could not bear.
In other words this man incapacitated me. I never knew it would cause me pain to this extent. Unmanageable wrath, the kind that tears me apart. That prick that caused me to cry myself to sleep in numerous nights.
Do I let him go? It is beyond what you are thinking. It’s a whole long tale that needs a special sitting like the Arkadi’s in the book “The Richest Man in Babylon.” The wee hours of copious nights are witnesses to the great groans and signs I am talking about. Probably you are wondering and almost questioning the gist of this all. Don’t be in a hurry I will explain the whole story bit by bit, they say, step by step till you reach your holy grail! Mine is not holy for that matter, but an ugly, direful and dreadful diegesis like those in films. Sad films.”
HERE IS THE WHOLE STORY
The words of an innocent boy, yet a story of many. The voice so profound as it recorded in my mind. I couldn’t bear any further than putting it down on paper, here is the story.
He left his family and headed to the cool coasts of Pemba. Facts have it that he went when they needed him the most. I may add that he dodged an expectant mother. He went and never returned. Let’s say he decided to derelict in his duties as a father.
Do I let him go? That has been the question since Kari was born. I have witnessed him growing up to be a man without a father. A boy left without an alidade for manly living. No father figure, no bass in the house just him and his mother.
His mother must have been a strong one. She was nothing but a peasant farmer, working as a Trojan to make ends meet for her son and herself. Kari has ever wondered what he ever did to cause the swerve his father consented to.
The verisimilitude of the matter weighed heavily on Kari and all he wanted was a moment of reconciliation with his father.
Do I just let him go? This is a question to which Kari needed an answer. However, neither I nor his mother knew. Maybe his mother outgrew the pain of loss. She counted it all gain having raised a son on her own without the trace of a man who gave her the seed. She would always say, “Maybe life is not about healing the bruises but collecting the scars and moving on from where the pain left us.”
I WOULD BE A BETTER MAN
If I were him, I would have been a better man.
Why lure a lady to my intimate most yet fail to support her when the intimacy scores just right?
I tend to believe God gave men the mandate to give, support and maintain. To be a man is a privilege and you are a talisman of a great generation creation, until you abandon your package. Yes, I called it a package because you searched and earned it.
Life is too serious to assume that you will walk around neglecting your own blood. You signed up for it, embrace it!
If I were a man, I would not sunder the attachment with my own, my very own flesh and blood. I would not get a lady pregnant in the first place knowing very well am not ready for the responsibilities. Before you think of messing someone’s daughter’s life and hurting your own deoxyribonucleic acid, examine if truly you are a man.
DO I LET HIM GO? WHAT I THINK
To my friend Kari and anyone else sharing with the same fate, let him go. Forgive him. It’s time to look for the solution and not the situation. No matter how hard it is to let go the anger, the fury, the hurt and hate, let him go.
Get time to rejuvenate your mind. Get time and space to reach out to him if he is reachable. Let him go. He wronged you but he deserves a second chance.
I know it is easier said than done, but hey friend, he is human!
Talk about it with your mother, close friend or a family counselor on how to go about it. Being neglected by a father can affect someone’s life completely but going back on the inceptions and flipping a fresh page is the beginning of a new diegesis.
Yes, let him go!