DO I LET HIM GO? HE IS SO NEAR YET FAR AWAY.

“Do I let him go?For me, I knew it was time to let him know, while letting him go. Time had come for us to ultimately settle things . My heart had left my body in many instances at the thought of him.

Questions rummaged in my mind any time his name was mentioned. Of course they had no answers, rhetoric they were. What they did was leaving bruises that I could not bear.

In other words this man incapacitated me. I never knew it would cause me pain to this extent. Unmanageable wrath, the kind that tears me apart. That prick that caused me to cry myself to sleep in numerous nights.

Do I let him go? It is  beyond what you are thinking. It’s a whole long tale that needs a special sitting like the Arkadi’s in the book “The Richest Man in Babylon.” The wee hours of copious nights are witnesses to the great groans and signs I am talking about. Probably you are wondering and almost questioning the gist of this all. Don’t be in a hurry I will explain the whole story bit by bit, they say, step by step till you reach your holy grail! Mine is not holy for that matter, but an ugly, direful and dreadful diegesis like those in films. Sad films.”

HERE IS THE WHOLE STORY

The words of an innocent boy, yet a story of many. The voice so profound as it recorded in my mind. I couldn’t bear any further than putting it down on paper, here is the story.

He left his family and headed to the cool coasts of Pemba. Facts have it that he went when they needed him the most. I may add that he dodged an expectant mother. He went and never returned. Let’s say he decided to derelict in his duties as a father.

Do I let him go? That has been the question since Kari was born. I have witnessed him growing up to be a man without a father. A boy left without an alidade for manly living. No father figure, no bass in the house just him and his mother.

His mother must have been a strong one. She was nothing but a peasant farmer, working as a Trojan to make ends meet for her son and herself. Kari has ever wondered what he ever did to cause the swerve his father consented to. 

The verisimilitude of the matter weighed heavily on Kari and all he wanted was a moment of reconciliation with his father.

Do I just let him go? This is a question to which Kari needed an answer. However, neither I nor his mother knew. Maybe his mother outgrew the pain of loss. She counted it all gain having raised a son on her own without the trace of a man who gave her the seed. She would always say, “Maybe life is not about healing the bruises but collecting the scars and moving on from where the pain left us.”

ALSO READ; FEELING LOST ? WHAT I WISH EVERYONE KNEW ABOUT.

I WOULD BE A BETTER MAN

If I were him, I would have been a better man.

Why lure a lady to my intimate most yet fail to support her when the intimacy scores just right?

I tend to believe God gave men the mandate to give, support and maintain. To be a man is a privilege and you are a talisman of a great generation creation, until you abandon your package. Yes, I called it a package because you searched and earned it. 

Life is too serious to assume that you will walk around neglecting your own blood. You signed up for it, embrace it! 

If I were a man, I would not sunder the attachment with my own, my very own flesh and blood. I would not get a lady pregnant in the first place knowing very well am not ready for the responsibilities. Before you think of messing someone’s daughter’s life and hurting your own deoxyribonucleic acid, examine if truly you are a man.

DO I LET HIM GO? WHAT I THINK

To my friend Kari and anyone else sharing with the same fate, let him go. Forgive him. It’s time to look for the solution and not the situation. No matter how hard it is to let go the anger, the fury, the hurt and hate, let him go. 

Get time to rejuvenate your mind. Get time and space to reach out to him if he is reachable. Let him go. He wronged you but he deserves a second chance.

I know it is easier said than done, but hey friend, he is human!

Talk about it with your mother, close friend or a family counselor on how to go about it. Being neglected by a father can affect someone’s life completely but going back on the inceptions and flipping a fresh page is the beginning of a new diegesis.

Yes, let him go!

Mariam Mbodze

A lassie in the modern world, yet I got a missive from the ages... Silent thoughts make me yonder. Hey... Black girl talks, Mariam talks!

91 thoughts on “DO I LET HIM GO? HE IS SO NEAR YET FAR AWAY.

  • November 14, 2019 at 7:20 am
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    Thank you Mariam for the piece, it’s phenomenal and full of insights.
    Letting go is the best solution and cure for yourself. Letting go is the beginning of another new story.

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    • November 14, 2019 at 7:38 am
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      Thank you Gabriel ๐Ÿ‘Œ letting go is better than leaving with hate ๐Ÿ’ฏ

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    • November 14, 2019 at 8:53 am
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      Go girl goooo,what a story

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        • November 14, 2019 at 3:10 pm
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          Thank you Victor โœ…

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        • November 18, 2019 at 11:03 am
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          Thank you Poet, what a privilege.

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      • November 18, 2019 at 1:08 pm
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        Thank you girl!

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    • November 14, 2019 at 10:28 am
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      Letting go. A difficult process but can be done. Good one Mbodze.

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      • November 14, 2019 at 10:47 am
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        Thank you Enos ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ‘ŒThis is so encouraging, shukran!

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      • November 17, 2019 at 7:18 pm
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        You’ve got a very nice piece here Mariam. Congratulations. I will be looking forward to many of those.

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        • November 18, 2019 at 12:41 pm
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          Thank you Chege!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 7:30 am
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    Wow nice article, mbodze

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    • November 14, 2019 at 7:39 am
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      Thank you Redempta ๐Ÿ’ฏ

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  • November 14, 2019 at 7:32 am
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    Nice piece Mariam.๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š Letting him go. It’s hard. Easier said than done of course. But it is definitely the best way out. Keep blessing us gal ๐Ÿ’•

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    • November 14, 2019 at 7:39 am
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      Thank you Mutuku โค๏ธyes it’s the most difficult part of healing.

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      • November 14, 2019 at 6:20 pm
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        I totally agree with

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        • November 18, 2019 at 10:54 am
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          Great girl.

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      • November 18, 2019 at 12:42 pm
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        Thank you Simon, this is humbling. God bless you.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 7:43 am
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    Sadly Jeremiahs lamentations have become a reality in this present day confused generation โ€œWe have become orphans and fatherless; our mothers are like widows” (Lam. 5:3).Its time to step up and be the leaders of our families God calls us to be.It takes a man to teach a boy to be a man.Mariam not only adresses this reprehensible act but also offers practical guides to begin the path of healing.Its my prayer to every wounded warrior out there that God will heal that wound and that you will choose forgiveness.As I sign off the words of Psalms 147:3 still echo in my mind โ€œHe heals the broken hearted and binds up their woundsโ€.This is my prayer for every Kari out there.

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:46 pm
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      Wow…this is more than a comment, tear dropping comment indeed. Thank you Frank for the great revelation. And Amen to God’s promises, He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds. He says He will never leave nor forsake us. Glory to God! Once again, what a powerful enlightenment, God bless you dear!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 8:16 am
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    it the best,congrats guys,I love the creativity

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:46 pm
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      Thank you Christine!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 8:20 am
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    Good piece, l loved it๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:47 pm
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      Amazing, thank you Byron

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  • November 14, 2019 at 8:30 am
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    Wonderful dear,you are a great writer,you have that talent,congratulations…keep it up mummy

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:48 pm
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      Glory to Jesus! Thank you dear.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 9:06 am
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    Wow wow โค… God bless you dear for such a nice piece…. I will let him go for that’s the best option.. You’re a blessing

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:49 pm
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      Amen, let it be so. God speaks in so many ways and am humbled am a talisman of his mysterious revelation. Thank you Nancy.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 9:09 am
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    Nice piece , quite encouraging

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:50 pm
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      Thank you Rhodah, God bless.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 9:12 am
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    Thats nice Mary, its hard to let him go

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:51 pm
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      What a piece! .Shine on. Serving us with the sauce!๐Ÿ”ฅ

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      • November 18, 2019 at 12:34 pm
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        Thank you my dear…to God be the glory!

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:50 pm
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      Amazing, thank you Khamis. Shukran!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 9:24 am
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    Anhaa, so the best way out is letting go even though it’s not easy…nice piece Mamuu

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:51 pm
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      Yes Bonny, thank you. I am grateful for your concur.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 9:49 am
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    Nice article.

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:53 pm
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      Thank you dear. Am humbled.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 10:15 am
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    Good work and great lessons

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:57 pm
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      Thank you Ken!

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    • November 14, 2019 at 10:47 am
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      Thank you so much Hellen, this is encouraging ๐Ÿ’ƒ

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    • November 14, 2019 at 10:46 am
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      Thank you Simon ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ‘ŒThis means a lot ๐Ÿ’ฏ

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  • November 14, 2019 at 10:43 am
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    Wow! What an orgasmic feeling I developed after reading the above article. Actually I am impatient to wait for more and more from you dear. Keep us( your esteemed readers) impressed. I love it dear.

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    • November 14, 2019 at 10:45 am
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      Getting such a great comment uplifts my heart ๐Ÿ‘ŒThank you!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 11:15 am
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    Let them go – forgive.

    It may not mean you forget, neither would it remove all the consequences of wrong behavior, rebuild trust nor result into reconciliation.
    However, it is a door to lifting the burden of pain and self condemnation.

    Thank you for the piece Mariam.

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:41 pm
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      Thank you Getty… This comment is full of wisdomโœ…

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  • November 14, 2019 at 11:37 am
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    Wueeeh,Do I just let Him go?
    Kazi iko sawa mammii.

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:40 pm
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      Shukran sana ๐Ÿ‘Œunanijenga

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  • November 14, 2019 at 11:59 am
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    Hey Mariam, a lovely peace.Napend

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:39 pm
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      Thank you dear ๐Ÿ‘Œโœ…

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  • November 14, 2019 at 12:02 pm
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    Yes, I mean the lovely peace, by letting go ๐Ÿ˜—

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:39 pm
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      Thank you Joskim๐Ÿ‘

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      • November 14, 2019 at 3:07 pm
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        Well inked. I like how the argumentative of the mind struggles is brought out. A challenge for men to take up responsibilities.

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        • November 14, 2019 at 3:13 pm
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          Thank you Manuu โœ…This is encouraging

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        • November 18, 2019 at 11:00 am
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          Thank you Manuel, this means a lot to me.

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    • November 15, 2019 at 11:13 am
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      Let it Go and let God take control

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      • November 18, 2019 at 10:56 am
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        Yes indeed!!!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 12:29 pm
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    This piece is not just for ladies. It is an art of writing that speaks deeply to any guy thatโ€™s reads it. Its critic on the volume of being a responsible man; unflinching to his fatherly duties, it is a thumbs up!

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    • November 14, 2019 at 12:39 pm
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      Yes Godfrey, you’ve said it โœ…

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      • November 14, 2019 at 5:57 pm
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        First,nice work Mariam ๐Ÿ‘. . Second,I got to pick this from here;
        -The more you are privileged, the more you become responsible. ” We should work towards being responsible towards those who depend on us.
        -In as much as we always wish to have someone stay by our side, chances of this same person leaving us are also high. What’s left of us is misery and a heavy heart full of hatred towards this person. However,,there’s always light at the end of the tunnel and once we realize that, letting go of things/people that deprive us of our happiness and peace becomes easy.

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        • November 18, 2019 at 10:53 am
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          Thank you Esther, this is so encouraging and uplifting. You have talked it all dear, it’s so hard but as you said there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

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      • November 17, 2019 at 8:48 am
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        Let go of it dear

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        • November 18, 2019 at 10:57 am
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          Thank you Mandy.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 1:28 pm
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    So deep Mamuu๐Ÿ’œ

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:34 pm
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      Thank you Caren, this is humbling.

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  • November 14, 2019 at 1:45 pm
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    Go girl goooo,what a story

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    • November 14, 2019 at 3:12 pm
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      Thank you Shazz ๐Ÿ’ฏ๐Ÿ’ƒ

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    • November 18, 2019 at 11:02 am
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      Shazz thank you dear

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  • November 14, 2019 at 2:10 pm
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    Am much blessed by this beautiful words..
    Keep on girl๐Ÿ˜.

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    • November 14, 2019 at 3:12 pm
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      Thank you Cynthia ๐Ÿ˜‰

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    • November 18, 2019 at 11:01 am
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      Thank you Cynthia, am honored.

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    • November 18, 2019 at 12:59 pm
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      Many thanks!!!

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  • November 14, 2019 at 8:55 pm
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    Yes letting go is the better option. Am glad I did it. Truly healing is real. Nice peace mariam

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    • November 18, 2019 at 10:55 am
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      Thank you Lawrence.

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  • November 15, 2019 at 11:01 am
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    Great Marium! Really inspiring.

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    • November 18, 2019 at 10:56 am
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      Thank you Diana.

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  • November 17, 2019 at 8:49 am
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    Let go of it and you gonna have peace of mind

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    • November 18, 2019 at 10:59 am
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      Thank you dear.

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  • November 17, 2019 at 1:01 pm
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    This is something else ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

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    • November 18, 2019 at 10:59 am
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      Thank you Nicky, this means a lot to me.

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  • November 19, 2019 at 8:03 pm
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    I love this….letting go is better than being bitter๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘Œ

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    • November 28, 2019 at 7:48 pm
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      Thank you dear for the comment

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  • November 24, 2019 at 12:27 am
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    It’s hard to let it go but it’s the lead to follow…โœ๏ธ

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  • November 26, 2019 at 11:32 am
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    What a piece,,, the flow is quite amazing

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    • November 28, 2019 at 7:51 pm
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      Haha…Thank you Bonny

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